it’s been a quick minute, huh? 6 months have flown by!
life is a crazy, wonderful, and busy thing. assignments, work, a boyfriend, and being social seem to all require attention at the same time (nothing wrong with that, and I’ll gladly give them attention), but it leaves little time for me-time.
so here I am, taking me-time and doing something that soothes me and calms my mind: writing. this is no deep and profound post spouting wisdom to make life easier—although when I figure it out for myself I will definitely share it with y’all. rather, this is simply an update for my own sake of where my life is and where I want it to go. probably boring for you, but enjoy anyway.
6 months ago, when I last posted on here, my first winter semester at BYU was coming to a close. now, my second fall semester is well underway and just as challenging, if not more so, than it was then. thankfully I’ve learned a few things in the past year and it’s much easier to cope with college life.
6 months ago, I thought I had figured out what I wanted to do for the rest of my life–wrong. I have again changed my major, and I’m for real about this one. I apply to the Public Relations program at BYU in January and I am thrilled! (prayers that I actually get accepted, please and thank you.) this semester, I’ve been taking the prerequisite courses for PR and they’ve confirmed to me that this is something I love and am passionate about.
6 months ago, I intended on doing classes during spring and summer, and then doing fall and winter again. I began spring term, then quickly dropped by summer classes, and then withdrew from spring. life lesson learned: know your limits and don’t push them.
6 months ago, most of my friends left for summer break and I felt alone. but God is good, and led Cardon into my life, who makes every day better and life an adventure. not only that, but I understood the saying “distance makes the heart grow fonder”. my girl friends are all back and we’re closer than ever, and that truly is a blessing. (plus my beautiful friends from Florida are always just a text away, and that makes my heart happy.)
in the past 6 months, my testimony has wavered significantly. (what’s life without a few thousand trials of faith, amiright?) I’m grateful this happened at a time where I’m surrounded by the gospel everywhere and have so many sources of strength to look to when that happens.
honestly, having that period of uncertainty really sucked. I wish I could say that now that I’ve had it, it will never happen again, but of course that’s not how life works. losing that light and confidence in the Church and in God was rough, but it has had its underlying blessings. now I know that without that light, I truly am missing something. I have no reason to stray from something that brings me happiness.
life is weird. but it’s a beautiful kind of weird, the kind that despite everything, you wouldn’t trade for the world. and I, for one, am glad I’m here to enjoy it